This morning at church I saw this beautiful little girl running around in her cute dress and cowboy boots. As soon as I saw her I went into my imagination thinking what a wonderful father Westin will be some day. You know, more than anything that is the main reason I want to have kids. When I think of Westin being a daddy it brings me so much joy. Every time I see him with kids, especially little girls he lights up. He is so loving and caring! Is it wrong for me to want to have kids for Westin? Should I desire to have kids more for me being a mommy. I don't know...either way when we have a baby Westin will be a great father! I can't wait :)

Seriously, everyone either has a baby or is pregnant! It seems in the last couple of days I have heard or seen WAY too many people starting a family. Usually I don't care much but sometimes it bothers me. It doesn't bother me for their sake, just that it's hard when you're trying to have a baby. It's like it plays games with your head. You start doubting God's plans for your life and all that...even though you KNOW God totally has it under control. Pretty much I am over thinking it!