The past two months have been a crazy ride. I believe God has taught me more in these few weeks than all my life. Every day I see God striping away the lies and distortions I have lived with all my life.

Today we had training at church and once again God showed up in a wonderful way, revealing to me how my past family relationship(s) have shaped my views of my heavenly Father. Somewhere in life I started believing that God is too busy to care about what I am doing and/or feeling in life. The lie the Devil would have me believe is that God has others He is more concerned about.
Later we talked about the cross and how with all I have done and will do wrong in life, Christ still went to the cross for me. That is just mind blowing to me. Romans 5: 10 states, "For if, when we were God's enemies, we were reconciled to him through the death of his Son, how much more, having been reconciled, shall we be saved through his life!" AMAZING! The more I think about the cross the more I am amazed at God's love for me. I have never thought about the cross in this way. I took it for granted so many years of my life. It's almost like I am a new believer that can't get enough of Christ.

I don't know where God will take Westin and I next. It's funny, I started this blog about trying to have a baby and now I am just realizing that maybe God just wants me to speak about Him in general. Above all He is the reason for everything in my life. Baby or no baby I am content with what God has for me today.

Till the next post...

I know it's been forever since my last post but you can imagine saying you're not pregnant over and over. It just gets old ever a while.

I have been in Venice, LA working for the Deepwater Horizon oil spill for the last 55 days. The Lord has been teaching me a great deal about trust and having faith in His plans.
You know, when things don't go our way we tend to start thinking there is something wrong with us. You start to wonder, am I not good enough for "that" in my life? Does God not want this or that for me? The temptation is to doubt instead of trust in His sovereign plan for our lives. Why is that? Why are we so weak and automatically put God in a box so small that He can't do anything to change our minds? Why is our timing instead of God's so much more important to us?

These questions also run through my mind regarding starting a family. Have I done something that I don't deserve a family? Will years go by before God sees fit for us to have a baby? Yet again the temptation is to doubt instead of trust.

All morning I have been listening to music, particularly the song "Alpha and Omega" by Israel & New Breed. What an amazing song of God's power and faithfulness. In the end it's all about Christ! Whatever His plans are, even if it's not in my timing I am and will be ok with. I will close with this...

"And he who was seated on the throne said, "Behold, I am making all things new." Also he said, "Write this down, for these words are trustworthy and true." And he said to me, "It is done! I am the Alpha and the Omega, the beginning and the end. To the thirsty I will give from the spring of water of life without payment. The one who conquers will have this heritage, and I will be his God and he will be my son."
Revelations 21: 5-7

He is trustworthy and true...that is good news for me today!